Life in Arizona

Chris’s Dad
Current mood: sad

You never really realize how much someone touched your life till they are gone. My boyfriend Chris’s dad died yesterday September 5, 2005. Its funny how I can’t seem to pick my self up and be strong. I feel so horrible for Chris’s family, Julie not having her dad and Beth not having her husband. It is so hard when someone dies and its heartbreaking. I want to scream and cry and yell and just dig a hole to crawl into after all life right now just sucks. I fell awefull because I have a dad and a wonderful boyfriend. I feel guilty that I can’t take away their pain no matter how much I want to its a place I have never been before and emotions I can’t explain. It all makes you feel so alone, becausehe wasn’t my Dad and Chris needs to be with his family and I need to be strong and I really can’t be because I don’t know how. Its so frustrating not knowing and finding out that your whole world is all messed up. I just want to scream till its all over! AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGG

Life is Wonderful
Current mood: ecstatic

I am so glad I live in AZ. It is so great here. I didn’t realize just how much AZ has become my home till Chris came back from his vacation. I missed him so much and yet I was able to have an awesome weekend with friends. I am so lucky to have Chris the most wonderful man in the world and my roommate and the awsome friends and co-workers that are here for me. So sorry for having a long boring blog about how wonderful life is for me but I just want to express my self and its my blog so nanananana! Oh and to Shannon I love you you are the best friend a girl could ever have. I love the valley of the sun.

Arizona
Current mood: annoyed

Ok so what the hell since when is being a bitch ok. Well let me tell you a story about a little place I like to call Mesa. There is a place in mesa where they manufacture these things called "people" they grow up and at about age 10 develop what I call bitchism(cronic PMS). These people come in allshapes and sizes but there are some more popular models. So this disese CPMS causes these people to get angry at any promting such as hi, can i help you, or most commonly have a nice day. I dont know why this happens but a word of warning stay away from these people at all costs. How do you know if you see them well they have a distinctive glare. If you look at them and you are reminded of a rabid dog RUN they are armed with multi-lingual capibilities and will use them against you. Do not attempt to help these people they will get mad. They populate mostly west sides of any city in the valley and are extremly ANNOYING do not atemp to aproach these people you will only leave possibly being infected by their disease but if you do get infected a nice cup of tea and soup will clear any symptoms up iof all else fails call a loved one.